Figuring it out

The beauty of google. I simply googled free countdown clocks and voila! found one here: www.timeanddate.com and installed on the blog just to make myself accountable and give myself a visual reminder that I am able to accomplish this task of blogging for 30 days. Check it out to the right of this entry. Nothing fancy but I did it! I realize that I am blogging free flow, not really structuring thoughts or even sentences, but the point is that I am actually allowing myself that free flow in ideas. So I realized that just by taking action and being intentional I am allowing myself to create. I was at work this morning and had to pull out a piece of papper because I was mapping out some thoughts. I have felt stuck literally for years and it has only been due to not taking action. This feeling of being stuck and not taking action in the things I want to do, has made me anxious and depressed. Through out this journey I have gained so much insight and knowledge...but I have held myself back, and sabotaged my own progress. Why? Fear

Fear to find out truly what my full potential is, fear of not being perfect and not knowing what I am doing, fear to let myself down again or feel like a failure. Honestly Covid really was a blessing in disguise, becasue it allowed me to face my fears head on and to learn to truly surrender, and most importantly do the very thing I set out to do when I started this blog. Take the time to count my blessings and notice the little things.

Get back up and keep going

So today after work, walking to my car to head home I thought to myself, wait? Did you blog yesterday? I had a very nice Sunday afternoon yesterday at a very nice fancy hotel having afternoon tea with my daughter. A reservation I made a month ago for a mother/daughter Mother's Day tea. Talk about it's all in the details. Everything about it we loved, the ambiance, the harp music, the three course tea service, the champagne, and of course the tea. Ever since my daughter was little we have enjoyed tea time, she is now 20. Anywho, long story short, we got home, and my husband was so excited to make us wood fire pizza...that the evening progressed and I totally forgot to blog.  No excuse, but a great lesson for me in discipline and strategy. If I want to stick to this task of being consistent and blogging for 30 days straight I need to a) plan a designated time to blog and b) use a countdown clock to help me keep track.  I have been wanting to create opportunities to apply discipline and consistency in my life, to prove to myself that I can honor my own word.  Yes, I honor my word in certain areas but again, I feel I need discipline and structure. I want to start with something simple I can accomplish and build upon that to bigger and more complex tasks, like sitting down and studying for a certification I need for work, and completing a course I bought two years ago.  I am learning so much, and I want to apply it real time otherwise the years will continue to pass and I will never take any tangible action. So I am not going to beat myself up for breaking my two day streak, yeah I know, I just started and already skipped a day, but again I did learn something...AND I am not giving up. I am getting myself back up, dusting myself off and I am going to keep going.   So, how do I add a countdown clock?  I guess that's google time. I can post about it tomorrow!  Until then...

Hope and faith the size of a mustard seed

So today as part of my commitment and promise to myself to blog every day for 30 days I am here to write from the heart. I have learned so much in the last 10+ years about myself, my path, my purpose. It has taken so many shifts of mindset and learning so much about state of mind, and learning how emotions drive our lives and what we chose to experience. I learned from some of the best the last five years and throughout the years,  and some people who three or four years ago were exactly where I am now. Having all this life experience and desire to share an make a difference. The only difference between them and I is that they took action and went for it despite of fears, or the need to be perfect. They took imperfect action and went for it, they gave themselves grace and followed their heart, and their gut. I know I have so much to share, and now I know it does not have to be perfect. I can share and continue to grow and continue to learn and share what I learn even in the messy middle. Will you join me in this journey in the pursuit of the possibilities I can find at the other side of fear?

Never Give up

I started this blog in 2011 with as a nudge to my heart and from time to time I feel the tug to come here and write. I have learned to listen to the whispers of my heart but it has taken me so long to figure it out. I have been so fortunate to find so many inspirational speakers through out my journey of self discovery that I feel like an impostor sometimes thinking I have no clue how to start and how to share. I am learning so much these past four days from some of the greatest influencers in the knowledge industry. Real people who followed that nudge and listened to that whisper. 

I am so excited to share with you what I have learned the last 10 years. The process of self discovery and personal development, always feeling like I was running out of time and I was wasting time. Not knowing it was just perfect and right on time.  

I was challenged to give something my attention for at least 30 days and be consistent. Can I blog for 30 days in a row, every single day?  Yes I can. Even if no one is listening - I can use that time for myself and to focus and gather my thoughts, organize my thoughts and what I have learned. One thing I do truly believe is that knowledge is to be shared. I have gathered so much knowledge and have made it my lifestyle to share on my social media, but social media is so instant and fleeting, things get lost on a feed. 

I will recommit 10 years later to this blog and promise to myself to write even a little bit every single day starting today May 14th, 2021.

See you on the other side!

4 steps to move your goals forward

 

HOW DO YOU MOVE YOUR GOALS FORWARD? BY CREATING STRUCTURE.

1. Set realistic goals - break them down by monthly goals, daily top 3 goals to help you thrive and move the needle towards what you want, keep a running list of micro goals or things you want to do (move only three at a time to your daily goals to help you feel accomplished with your progress) once you complete the list three at a time you can create new tasks or to do lists.
2. Accountability is not a four letter word and you should not be afraid to be accountable, first to yourself and then to someone. Accountability not only helps you stick to your integrity, it provides that structure you need and also allows for a space of grace. You can be hard on yourself and you can also give yourself grace - as long as you have a good balance and you move forward with your progress you are already a success
3. Community and Support allows you to have a space where like minded people can understand your struggles, encourage you, love you and help you as well as celebrate your achievements. Do not deny yourself the joy of giving encouragement to others as you receive it in return.
4. Celebrate! Achieved goals big or small deserve recognition and celebration - feel good about what you have accomplished and inspire others to do the same!

Choose Hope, expect miracles

Every single day is a new opportunity to make a change.
Every single day is a fresh start.
Every new week is a clean slate.
Every new month is an opportunity to map out the new and start building new habits.
Every New Year we are wiser if we take the lessons and get to make progress and grow.
Every new decade we start a new and lasting chapter of our lives.
If you treat each day and every opportunity to live a better life for granted and treat it like any other day there will not be much to notice or appreciate. If you keep doing what you have been doing, you will keep getting the same results. We all have room to grow.

Let go and let God

Eight months ago... wow that was the last time I wrote something here.

Have been wanting to find my groove and place in the world in the last few months. I have really learned to ease back and start allowing things to flow in the last 8 months.  I have such deep desire to have some significant contribution and I get frustrated when I do not see my perceived ideas of what that could possibly mean.

One thing for sure is that the recurring theme has been "Let go and Let God".

I have stressed myself to the point of sickness trying to control circumstances and focusing way too long on the things that are missing or not working. This has been a long long process - so much so that it was the reason why I started this blog in the fist place.

I decided I would pay attention to the little things and stop focusing on trying to see big things happen in my life.

My worst fear is to be mediocre, live a mediocre life, have a mediocre business, be a mediocre person. Some times I feel I am on my way but somehow I keep missing the point. Just by the mere fact that I exist and I am here makes me NOT mediocre.  I have a life purpose.

I must say that through out these few months I have experienced true miracles, and feel more and more at ease with my life. I even feel an underlying sense of hope and that is exciting, considering I was in a deep hole of sorrow for many many years.    I do know now that EVERY single situation, thing and person in my life has gotten me to the now.

I choose to live one day at a time, one moment at a time and focus on my happiness with now.

I don't even know how to organize my thoughts today - but I will try and write my feelings more every day.  I keep feeling the nudge to do the following and I am writing them here for accountability to myself:

• Meditate every morning for at least 15 minutes
• Journal every morning and every night
• Work out 20 minutes a day
• De-clutter - make room for the new

I am challenging myself to do this for the next 30 days.

I have to listen to my inner being... and see where it takes me.